i feel sorry for this girl...

her room mate used to work with me and he says she's psycho, but she's hanging out with some hick type dudes that i KNOW... and they are treating her like a piece to pass on to the next guy and almost blatantly making her the butt of a million jokes at the bar (one of the dudes was the bartenders husband)..

i can't get into all of the shit they were talking to her face but really... she was oblivious to it (or just didn't care)...

she still went downtown with them... even though they were telling me (talk to her if you wanna get laid... it's that easy...)

fuck that.. i got date with a real woman tomorrow/today... andsorry.. i'm not playing the role of captain save a ho tonight....

end of day 11

see y'all on dy 13 (or 12 if my date goes bad)

10 days

i can't say i havent had a cigarette the WHOLE time... but for the most part i'm doing well..

day two i got really drunk ripped off the patch, smoked and felt better..

days six i drank alot took off the patch and had a smoke... i threw up...

day nine... (last night) i had a couple pitchers of beer and got stuck on playin facebooks version of risk and smoked half a cigarette (left in the ashtray)...

but as long as i'm not drinking... and keeping myself busy at work i'm good.. actually i lose track of time cause i'm not feeling that it's "time for a cigarette"...

all in all i think this will work...

have a date on sunday... going to clash of the titans in 3-d at4:50 then dinner... i'm thinking about going to oasis (the Mediterranean place downtown) just cause she's never been there.. a food adventure...

ersten tag

aka first day

I woke up took a shower and slapped on the patch... i was very fidgety for most of the morning trying not to smoke... i was good for while... afternoon one of my smoking co-inhabitants came home... had a smoke on the back patio with the door open... wasn't so bad... after the third time i left to go eat etc.... drank some beers and read a little... but there were countless times i stopped reading and searched my pocket for my smokes thinking it was time for one...

managed to NOT bum one off anyone.. and cruised home....

gott work at 8 so I'm off to bed but 1 day down.... the rest of my life to go...

Full-Time/no smoking

I'm getting full-time status at work... which means my medical/dental benefits will be better, they match my 401k contributions, i get whole day pay for holidays (instead of half) my profit sharing checks will be bigger, etc etc etc... YAY... I've been trying to get this for six months and they're finally going for it.

plus... the home depot has a thing going with a quit smoking program. they're givingmeover the phone counseling, sending a pamphlet about tips etc etc and givingme 8 weeks of nicotine patches for free...

I think it's kinda wierd that i signed up for this (not cause it's almost my birthday though it is) but right before SLO is about to pass a law making it illegal to smoke anywhere a non-smoker might be present... that includes SIDEWALKS..parking garages parks... pretty much anywhere other than your own house (granted i can walk down the street in the middle of the night and not presume a non-smoker would be there)

but yeah... they're paying for it and i need to quit (smoking for 20 years and quitting at 34/35 isn't going to be easy) but at least i don't have to come out of pocket for the patches... they cost more than the cigarettes do...
wish me luck (oh and this also means my drinking will significantly decrease since that's one of my major triggers)

if i can quit smoking, and drinking... that'll save me about $600/mo

at least

Writer's Block: Search for intelligent life

Do you believe there is other intelligent life in distant galaxies? If no, why not? If yes, do you believe this is something to be feared and avoided or actively sought out?

out of the infinity of space I'd be surprised if this was the only planet that has spawned life.
not only life, but so many different forms of it, I'd have to be a bible banger NUT not to think that we're entirely alone

Writer's Block: My Mythical Creature

If you could have any mythical creature as a pet, what sort of creature would you choose and what special powers would it have?
i want a gryfon/griffin that would be an awesome pet, as far as special powers... flick me with it's tail to make me virtully weightless so i could ride on its back (and maybe undying love so it won't drop me, course if its my pet it will love me) and maybe enjoy other weightless experiences (i'm sure Id get over the vertigo pretty quick)